Radiation Round 2 and other stuff

So, there are some crazy things going on. I hope I can word this so it is easy to follow! Last Tuesday (June 21st) I completed my first round of radiation. That was 5 treatments to two tumors on the top of my head. I was having small seizures in my left leg. On Thursday they began radiating the surgical site. This was the beginning of 5 treatments. While I was on the table, I had a large seizure (almost lasted 10 minutes). This one went from my left leg to my chest. I was really scared! It ended on it's own, but now I am back on steroids. The doc seems to think that this will be the worst of my issues because of the brain trauma between my surgery and the radiation. So, tomorrow, I will finish what we didn't get to on Thursday. I will then have 4 more treatments to the surgical site. I will take about a month break and after that (it can take up to 3 weeks for the radiation to completely work) then I will have radio-surgery which is a one day deal of some heavy radiation. That should complete the brain issues (well, the ones the doctors can help anyway).

I do have a tumor in one lung that could end up blocking part of my airway. We have decided to radiate that too. The other tumors in my lungs are very small and not causing any issues, so I am thinking about taking a rather long break from any kind of treatments and just watching them. I haven't gotten the advice from my doc yet, but I plan on asking his opinion.

These past 6 years have been such a roller coaster ride with all of this that I think I need a break! Something on my mind. I know that now I physically look sick and I am having "regular cancer symptoms". Yes, it is scary and yes, for the first time I am getting a little scared. Something that you as my family and friends should remember is that this is the time for us to make happy memories. It is not time to worry. By getting upset and worrying, we are wasting precious happy time that we still have! I understand that it hurts (it hurts me too), but I don't feel that I am sick enough for any of us to waste good time that we still have! This is all part of God's plan and IT WILL BE USED FOR HIS GOOD!!! Thank you to so many of you who have taken extra time to get to know me and letting me get to know you! Thank you for all of your prayers, love, food, help with the kids and support!

Let us be happy and enjoy every single moment that God has given us! Anybody who reads these (and other people too) have a super speceal place in my heart!